.: me = no one :.

...24 nov 2009...
...2253 WIB...

cold nite....though da rain was just like only 10 minutes today..
mood swings back and forth like HELL..
dun noe why..always like this..
shit...sumtimes i just hope my life will end..very soon..
easy..for everyone.......
no more burden.....
no longer heart breaking...
no more guilt....
since this is not a chilling post..
i chose this colour...suits my mood..
e.m.o.... :(

it feels like looking to da sky...
ya its beautiful...open and free...
and ya..u admire it..
but at da same time,
u noe u won't be able to reach it..
u noe dat u won't even able to touch it..
dats da same feeling i have while having u...
it feels like ur da one and only in my life...
ur beauty made me admire u the most...
yet i noe dat loving u wasn't even close to da word " possible "
to even touch ur " taken away " heart may take another century..
or longer...

but da question is.........
"how can you love da person dat doesn't even care bout you?"

guess i was wrong bout u gurl.....
u were not da same as da 1st time i laid my eyes on u...
not to say ur not my taste...but...
seems like i have to face da fact dat u've changed...
changed to sumone dats totally up-side-down....
it felt like piercing a nail through da flesh and bone....

proves da human tongue was rite all along...
"people changed through time"

so what should a soul-less man do when he knew dat he'll die not in da arms of he loved ones....not to forget, he lost all his hopes during broken moments and everything crushes down on him?
what should he do?!?!

only GOD knows.......

only GOD.........

...a journey to remember...

...24 oct 2009...
2345 WIB

from a n.e.r.d back from da hell of bangi...

to a d.u.d.e in da streets of ALAM SHAH...

then a h.o.o.l.i.g.a.n at da heaven of NIRWANNA

now...turning into a M.A.N in da land of U.N.P.A.D,jatinangor...indonesia...



well....dats life...time passes on without even a single stop...
hurrmmm...missing those moments...haish...


oh ya...met new frens...haha,,quite easy actually...
ntah...cam..jumpe..
say "hi"..
then kuar...
then da next thing suddenlly ..
da jadi "B.F.F'

haha...strange thing though...how people get dat close like less than a month..
damn....i love da world dat time...
it felt like i was not alone...obviously...

..let me start with su wen..

she came to unpad with me....(wee~...hahah)
but...then after like a month there...she left...damn sedih..
what to do la ryte...it's her choice..
i'm not like her father to decide for her..
plus..she's already 18..i guess she can make her decision kot...heh

so there she goes...she left me alone..(not really...haha)


then...there's intan....da gurl from port dickson...
ya we met like from nirwanna already...but dat time we're just like..
"oh dat dude...oh dat gurl..." hahaha...u got what i mean??hehe
so she's a happy-go-lucky person..
damn lepak n open minded...she "tour-guided" us first time to bandung...
hahaha..thanx intan ;)...
ya people..she screams...a lot...hahahaha...but ok ar...
cool kot...hehe
any problems i'll just tell intan la...since su wen is no longer here...
penat kot telinga die dgr probs aku...sorry tan...
haha...get to noe her..u'll be pleased...honestly...



next!!!!we move on to... natasha shahar...(don't google her name guys!!hahaha)
urmm...what to say ar...haha...she intan's rumie..weee~..
so basically i got to noe her like from intan la...
she LOVES to laugh...haha..wont forget da first time i heard dat...
cool n sweet person....always there for me...thanx tasha! (^,^)
she's like one of da reasons i quit smoking....finally...heh
so...dats make her someone s.p.e.c.i.a.l is it??
hurmmm...we'll see bout dat..hahahah


so people!!!!
dats basically da most important peoples i got to noe here....
felt very very lucky.....
coz without them....
i think i'll be in da dirts of earth rite now...criusly...
luv them...as much me family...jerks..and nirwanaians....

dats all for now...later dong!!!!!

K.A.M.I

natasha.intan.su wen.ali

......it seems like.......

19/06/09

aku dapat 4a beb dlm exam....first sem aku..
pergh...x sangka lak..
ye la..tima exam aku ade entrance exam class...
so...nk study pn takde mase...

sepatutnye malam ni..aku kena happy ar ryte???
dapat 4a..bukan senang...
tapi x tau nape......
tiap kali aku pikir pasal orang tu......
makin sedih lak jiwa ni...
serius doh...aku makin sedih mlm2 camni....
x suka lak eh.....

aku bukan expert atau pro....
dlam benda2 camni...
juz 2nd time ar kot...
so aku x tau nak wat pe....
member semua cakap..."relaks la ali..."
but.....how la ek...........

aku nk buat keje xde mood....
nak wat pape pun xde mood.......
adik angkat aku ni lak.....surh aku jangan sedih.....
masalah nye...aku x sedih....juz hampa...
yup...dats da correct word.....HAMPA....

damn!
nak wat pe lak ni....
xtau ar doh...aku redha je la..........
maybe ni takdir aku kot....aku rase ar.....
mungkin aku memang akan begini je sampai ke kubur.....
salah aku ker???
or aku ade kurang sesuatu???
or aku terlebih?????
tell me!!!!!!!!!!!!

honestly....aku ade pikir nk suicide.....
tapi x elok ar....berdosa dalam religion aku.....
mungkin................
aku memang xkan ade orang kat luar sane untuk aku?!?!?!
adeh.........sakit kepala...
nk smoke...tapi rumah bai....kantoi mati aku.....

so nak wat pe??
hrmmmmmm.......

BETTER DIE LA.....

.....a Lunch with Marlia Maisarah.....

"Friday the 20th"

oh happy day....
i woke up very sleepy lol...
sleepy eyes (=,=) in da morning...
"mak,where's my black baju melayu?"
"kat sini haa...apo ni ngah?pagi2 dah xnampak.."
ayooo mak...
last nite study bio lol...
tu pun after i knew dat i missed bio practical yesterday...
nvr mind lah...

now...
da lunch...
last nite already plan mehh..
only me, jaya n Marlia Maisarah...
but then!
tarina mau follow....
ok la...
it's not like everyday i have lunch with her rite...
skali skale...
heh..
but then!
Joovan & Kenneth followed...
ayoyoyoyoyo....
a bit dissapointed ar dat time...
juz a bit lol...
sory ar guys...
heh..
straight to da "SECRET RECIPES"...

==============================

all of sudden, they were heading towards the mamak stall...
what da???
"wei,secret recipe lol...mau gi mamak ke?"
"nono...i thought mamak juz now..."
"heh,u lalu pun da ckap scary...ni lak nk lunch kat situ.."
"ei!i will one day eat at there ok?i will sit there n eat.."
"yea rite...in a thousand years...."
marlia....marlia....
pe la...
we got lost in da central market!
forgot to turn on my gps system...
sory2....
heh....

while ordering.....
marlia n tarina were looking at da "power saving meal"
come on marlia!
it's on me lol..
order something exclusive....
"okok...give me spaghetti meatball chicken..."
ahaa..
like dat la marlia....
"but afraid cannot finish lol...."
"relax la marlia...."

evryone brought bio books...
since we're having bio test....
kenneth and joovan bising already...
da akak and abg there started staring at us...
damn lol...
agak malu laa disitu....
ayoi...
marlia da tension...
hehe~
here comes da food....

cepat2 makan...
wanna study bio...
marlia ate very slowly....
i can see dat she's muak with da food
sory la marlia....
i dunno dat it wasn't ur taste...
juz trying...
then finished!
they went to class, i went to masjid jamek...
friday prayers laaa....

something happened during biolozee class..
but xmau cite la meh......
wat tension je...
heh!
emo je keje lecturer...

so dat's it boys and gurls!
"a lunch with marlia maisarah"
happy day lol!
chiao~

".....HaRaPaNkOsONg....."

.....Tuesday 17th....

"ku benci org beri ku harapan kosong"

"J.A.M.B.U"

..."JAMBU"...

So basically "JAMBU" means pink rite?
but..
at my high skul,it means a different thing....
i studied at a all-boys skul..as u guys noe la...
so jambu means "baby face juniors"..
these jambu will have like a senior "pegang" them..
it's like, "ko skang jambu aku.."
it means dat da seniors owns da junior as his "jambu"...


dats high skul beb!
now i'm bringing it to COLLEGE....

my JAMBU.......
she always help me...
when i'm in trouble laa...
but always like a B when she's in EMO mode...
haha...sory ek...
u wanna who?

SUHAILA = SU WEN = JAMBU KU...

hehe....
u noe da "D.I.A" thing?
yup,she helped too...
she's a good listener laa...
we had lunch at mcd one day...
tapi aku pulak kena belanja.....
gentleman la katekan..
ceh!
okok...
we talked bout da problm...
and kept comparing da gurl wif her..
what da????
jambu2....
aku x compare,die pulak nak...
apa mau buat rite??
she's at first silent je ngan aku...
but when i got to noe her...
mak aiii!!!!
lots of sound suddenly came out of her mouth!
weird sounds u noe!

for example:
- naahhh!!!
- daaeehhhh!!!!
- ceh!
- eheheheh!
- nyeknyek....
- fuuhhhailo.....(smoking style..)

suhaila ohh suhaila.....
i dunno how jack can manage wif u...
what to say more ek??
hrmm....
i like to listen to her phone..
her pink SE phone..
got lots of jiwang chinese song...
i always layan after me zohor prayers....
and also shireen's one...
same la dis two people...

what more bout her ye??
she's cute laa....
but please suhaila...
dun perasan....
hehe...
she always hang da "touch n go" card around her neck...
like someone going to steal it....
wif da pink band..got pictures of pigs on it...
nanti aku beli baru ek....
huh...

she likes pink....
yea..i noe...
pink bag,pink phone,pink shirt,pink lala shoes,pink nail polish...
pink,pink,pink!
dats y she's my jambu!
hehe...


"su wen selalu tolong aku time susah"....she always say...
thanx la jambu!


msg to jambu:
- thanx la jambu!
- ur a gud fren...
- a gud listener
- a gud "problem solver"
- ei,wait...
- mana my 6 ringgit?
- lama lagi???
- takpe laa...
- if u cannot, i halalkan aje la...
- hehe...

k guys!
chiao~

Results : The aftermath....

.....Friday the 13th.....

A day after the result....
gua bangun pagi,dah ujan...
mak aiii..
patut ar ngantok je...
sejuk gak ar...
sedap tido balik...
tetibe...
"oi ngah!ko bkan ade klas ke kul 9?"
alamak.....
klas math la pulak...
siol...
so,pergilah ku dalam hujan...
basah!


sampai kolej....
tgk muka bdak smua sedih je...
Jack diam je....
Su wen ckp "ali...xboleh lol blanje u ari nie..sory ek.."(sedih je bunyi..)
Marshini sedih...bio dpat B...coz dlu trial dpat A1...
al maklum la...Star la katakan....
Anil cam bese ar...
relax je....
overall mmg sedih ar...
aku nk blaja pun xde mood
terpakse ar wat bsing dlam klas...
baru mangat ckit...


skul aku ok kot...
aku rase ar..
better than batch last year...

msg to member at nirwana:
relax la braders....
it's juz a beginning ar wei....
like da shiny guy always say : "take it positively"

chiao~

"D.I.A"..part 3..(the confession)..

.....7th March.....

....confession....

me jambu said, " i think x payah la..."

aku reply, "nape x payah?..jeles ek...."
"ceh!aku xnak komen ape2...pandai2 kau la.." jambu dah bengang...
"nanti aku bgtau die la.."
gud luck la daniel.....
gaya mcm la nk gi gado.....

konfensi diriku bermula time tghari kot....
tatkala on9 di ym....

me : got free time?
her : yes..y la?
me : got prob lol..
her : ok...lay it on me...
me : ok..it's like dis...i'll ask u da question..ur answer is only "should or not?"..komen xpayah ek..
her : ok...
me : i kinda like dis gurl...S or N?
her : S
me : but she's different race from me..S or N?
her : S..who is dis gurl la?
me : eii.only aku can ask question..ok?
her : ok...
me : but i think she likes another guy lol..and dat guy is much more better than me..S or N?
her : S..see what's her reaction...
me : ok...but she said something to her fren laa..." i dont want a Muslim..."..S or N?
her : i think i cant answer dat question...its up to u...
me : S or N?
her : (after a long time....)..S..daniel...i think i noe dis gurl...so freaking obvious!
me : what?who?
her : nver mind lah....continue..
me : ok...but after a long time rite, finally i noe...she likes dat guy...S or N?
her : S...straight to the point...
me : ok...do you noe dis gurl?
her : she sounds familiar....how long sudah u kenal die?
me : quite a while....cuba teka sape die...
her : daniel...u're describing me.....so..u like me?
me : yup..and dats my confession...
her : ok..juz wondering..y?
me : it's juz.....

tetibe lost connection!
alamak aiii...potong stim toi laaa...
xpe arr...
janji dah let go...
kire dah release la problem nie....
so leh aku study cm bese...
lega gak ar....
settle!
ok?
dats the end of "D.I.A"....

thanx to jambu n sesape yg tlong ek....
peace out,bro!

"D.I.A" part 2....(the sekuel)

return back to the story....(where was i ek?)
oh ya!
"D.I.A"...
urm...
after dat day,i talked to a friend....(she's taken ar wei)
on friday la....
i asked her....

me : does a gurl wanna noe dat som1 likes her?
her : DEPENDS la...
me : what do u mean la?
her : it's like dis...(cewaah!..bunyi cam doktor lak..)
every gurl wanna noe....it's juz if she keeps avoiding u,it means dat she rejects u
but if she doesnt avoid u,dat means it' ok la!
me : x paham ar ape ko ckap....
her : easy to say,juz tell her..BUT!..u tanggung the consequences....
me: mak aii...bunyi cam dangerous je...
her : WHO is dis gurl?same skul ka?(soalan paling malas nk jawab...)
me : cannot tell la...i juz want to end da febuary wif a CONFESSION n start da march with EXCITEMENT!
her : what da hell?
me : mu dok pahe....(kelatan style..)

and then ku balik wif a question..."SHOULD OR NOT"(only org certain je tau...hehe)

uii...
panjang lagi citer nie.....
leh wat novel lah senang kate....
hehe...
next time,wa sambung balik ek...
banyak benda lgi nak pikir...
chiao~

"D.I.A"

"are u sure,ali?"jambu ku tanya....
"ntah ar...dah terase camtu..nak wat camne ek..."aku reply...
aku terpikir balik....
camne leh jadi camni ek...
serius x penah rase camni...
TENSION c-al....
pernah aku EMO pasal bnda nie...

time tue ari khamis....
bangun pagi jer,mak aiii...rase sakit atie tetibe...
tension gak ar gi kolej...
masuk kelas,letak beg,blah!
xtau ar nape nyampah tetibe...
pegi 18th floor,beli air,turun....
msuk je klas, dah xde mood langsung..
rase cam lempang jer rikeish (brader dok sblah aku)..(sorry ar bro..hehe..)
TIME FOR MATHS!!!!
mR. Umas lak wat pasal....
lagi bengang ade ar!
tension ber (+)..
f**k off ar wei...
pegi mamak....(paham2 je lah ape aku wat kat situ...)
JACK dah sound bdak2.."don't disturb him..give him some time..."
thanx ar jack..
ur da man lah....
aku balik camtu jer..
maleh nak pandang member2 aku time tue...(sorry ar bro!)
begitulah ku tamatkan ari itu....

tapi ramai x paham...
sape "D.I.A" tu bro?
mane leh bgtau bengong...
ilang maruah oohhhh...

relaks...
nanti2 aku citer....
chiao~

First time!!!!!!!

nie first time beb...

kira nie cam testing la....
nanti aku wat lawa2 ek?
huhu...