what is sooooooo GREAT being a malay??
we ruled the country?
we're more "civilized"?
we're open-minded to accept other race in our own motherland?
one word. BULLSHIT
ya. our 1st prime minister did gave us freedom.independence.
and he was a malay..
so what do we malays proud of?
is it because it was a malay who went all the way just to make sure that when we wake up every morning, there's no japanese soldier banging our door??
I don't get it u know.
i have few of my friends,
when each time they see an indian walking in front of them,
they'll be covering their nose just to show that he was stink.
and it was on purpose!
i had a cousin to search my pockets just to make sure no chinese smuggled drugs each time i went hangout with them!
so what malays are expecting from them?!
I'm not going to be hypocrite here.
I too was a bid of a racist myself. but it was waaaaayyyy long time ago.
maybe because i was in a boarding school full of malays.that i even didn't have a chance to know about their culture, mind and understanding.
then i went to a indian college after my SPM.
trust me. it wasn't easy for me at the 1st time.to see a whole bunch of "coloured" people sitting around me,
just talking in some random language,
laughing at dirty jokes *as they sayy..*
but be surprise that on my 1st day of "school"
an indian ajak me to have lunch with them.
YA. AN INDIAN.
even my relatives didn't bother to ask me whether i have eaten or not.
at that moment, i knew i was wrong about them
They're not violent as we see them in tv.
that's all media and political bullshit.
*that's for next time*and how lucky i am. To go to an indonesian university here in bandung.
straight after graduation.
and more lucky coz in my batch there's only 9 malay guys, 20 malay girls and
a 4 indian football tems and more!
here i learned more than what i expected.
not just medical shits.
but the true indian culture. their TRUE colour.
i've even made them as my own family.
so ya peeps.. i got a whole lot more to say about themcoz they aren't like we see through our eyes.
thru the MEDIA's eyes.
and those political bullshit? don't trust them.
coz to them, it's all bout the money.
get to know them 1st, talk to them. go to their temple or what ever shits u wanna do with them.
then only u k
now, then only u realise,
that,
"we all just the same"
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Thursday, January 21, 2010
.: B . O . N . D . S :.
...22 january 2010...
...0039 WIB...
...0039 WIB...
well actually...
tajuk quite xde kena mengena ngn aku nye post mlm ni..
hehe..
di mlm exam camni..
smue study...not all laa..
but got some study..some tido..maen dota..
haha..
da tensi sgt jadi "budak medik"
tp laen bg aku beb..
type post baru for me blog..
de sorg penah ckp...
"blogs are for losers"
"kalo nk express how u feel, then juz say it laa"
haha..
terkilan senanye dgr dorg ckp camtu..
coz 2 - 2 org tu member baek kot...
well...........
there is a reason why ppl chose to write a blog
juz to express wat inside their mind
instead of saying out loud..
same as me...
i live on one of these principle :
"words can be hurt"
ok....
so it's quite less painful or more relieving
to juz write it in the blog
sooo...
back to da "principle"
ok...
last nite..
de member aku...dtg mai blik..
dgn muka sedih, nada suara yg berat, badan lesu..
mai je terus baring atas katil...
aku lak ngah layan citer Public Enemies..hehe
aku tanye die..
"asal ko ni bai?"
die jawab...mate time tu da cam berair gak ar..
"pe ko rase kalo org yg ko syg slame ni da di "rampas" org?"
to tell you da truth..
aku xtau camne nk jwb dat question..
but juz nk senangkan ati die..
coz x sanggup kot tgk member sedih camtu...
aku jawab..
"biar je die tuh...jgn pikir sgt.."
so......
u guys must be asking...
asal lak member aku ni sayang gler kat minah tu?
or should i say BITCH...
well.....
like i said..
words can be hurt....
dulu ko ckp mcm2 beb..
"aku sayang kau"...."u belong to me"...ku perlukan mu"
and others la..
but in the end..
ko sendiri yg x "stick" ngn ur own words..
u broke a guy's heart...
u became a fucking bitch...
BOND yg ko ngn die da buat for sooooooo freaking long
da putus camtu je...
so wat i'm trying to say here...
mind ur words..
i mean like
dun juz say and never meant them..
dun juz say and the next moment u forgot...
dun juz say and hope it fall on deaf ears..
if u hav dat soo much of courage to say THOSE things,
then have da courage to face da consequences when evrythg screwed up!
so aku spread da words among u guys,
gurls.
and obviously...BITCHES,
dun juz think about urself when u say about somethg..
or anything!
even when u talk to someone yg ko kenal like 5 minutes ago...
x kire how heartless u are..
dun break a person's heart...
by using ur own words...
coz who noe...
one day,da whole world might FUCK U UP!
tu je la for malam nie...
hope we all amek iktibar..
n sorry for those who terasa...
coz korang deserve it...
put ur heads up high for da broken hearts..
coz we gotta move on in this life..chillex!
and fuck off for da bitches!

tajuk quite xde kena mengena ngn aku nye post mlm ni..
hehe..
di mlm exam camni..
smue study...not all laa..
but got some study..some tido..maen dota..
haha..
da tensi sgt jadi "budak medik"
tp laen bg aku beb..
type post baru for me blog..
de sorg penah ckp...
"blogs are for losers"
"kalo nk express how u feel, then juz say it laa"
haha..
terkilan senanye dgr dorg ckp camtu..
coz 2 - 2 org tu member baek kot...
well...........
there is a reason why ppl chose to write a blog
juz to express wat inside their mind
instead of saying out loud..
same as me...
i live on one of these principle :
"words can be hurt"
ok....
so it's quite less painful or more relieving
to juz write it in the blog
sooo...
back to da "principle"
ok...
last nite..
de member aku...dtg mai blik..
dgn muka sedih, nada suara yg berat, badan lesu..
mai je terus baring atas katil...
aku lak ngah layan citer Public Enemies..hehe
aku tanye die..
"asal ko ni bai?"
die jawab...mate time tu da cam berair gak ar..
"pe ko rase kalo org yg ko syg slame ni da di "rampas" org?"
to tell you da truth..
aku xtau camne nk jwb dat question..
but juz nk senangkan ati die..
coz x sanggup kot tgk member sedih camtu...
aku jawab..
"biar je die tuh...jgn pikir sgt.."
so......
u guys must be asking...
asal lak member aku ni sayang gler kat minah tu?
or should i say BITCH...
well.....
like i said..
words can be hurt....
dulu ko ckp mcm2 beb..
"aku sayang kau"...."u belong to me"...ku perlukan mu"
and others la..
but in the end..
ko sendiri yg x "stick" ngn ur own words..
u broke a guy's heart...
u became a fucking bitch...
BOND yg ko ngn die da buat for sooooooo freaking long
da putus camtu je...
so wat i'm trying to say here...
mind ur words..
i mean like
dun juz say and never meant them..
dun juz say and the next moment u forgot...
dun juz say and hope it fall on deaf ears..
if u hav dat soo much of courage to say THOSE things,
then have da courage to face da consequences when evrythg screwed up!
so aku spread da words among u guys,
gurls.
and obviously...BITCHES,
dun juz think about urself when u say about somethg..
or anything!
even when u talk to someone yg ko kenal like 5 minutes ago...
x kire how heartless u are..
dun break a person's heart...
by using ur own words...
coz who noe...
one day,da whole world might FUCK U UP!
tu je la for malam nie...
hope we all amek iktibar..
n sorry for those who terasa...
coz korang deserve it...
put ur heads up high for da broken hearts..
coz we gotta move on in this life..chillex!
and fuck off for da bitches!

shibukawa bounce!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
.: me = no one :.
...24 nov 2009...
...2253 WIB...
...2253 WIB...
cold nite....though da rain was just like only 10 minutes today..
mood swings back and forth like HELL..
dun noe why..always like this..
shit...sumtimes i just hope my life will end..very soon..
easy..for everyone.......
no more burden.....
no longer heart breaking...
no more guilt....
since this is not a chilling post..
i chose this colour...suits my mood..
e.m.o.... :(
it feels like looking to da sky...
ya its beautiful...open and free...
and ya..u admire it..
but at da same time,
u noe u won't be able to reach it..
u noe dat u won't even able to touch it..
dats da same feeling i have while having u...
it feels like ur da one and only in my life...
ur beauty made me admire u the most...
yet i noe dat loving u wasn't even close to da word " possible "
to even touch ur " taken away " heart may take another century..
or longer...
but da question is.........
"how can you love da person dat doesn't even care bout you?"
guess i was wrong bout u gurl.....
u were not da same as da 1st time i laid my eyes on u...
not to say ur not my taste...but...
seems like i have to face da fact dat u've changed...
changed to sumone dats totally up-side-down....
it felt like piercing a nail through da flesh and bone....
proves da human tongue was rite all along...
"people changed through time"
so what should a soul-less man do when he knew dat he'll die not in da arms of he loved ones....not to forget, he lost all his hopes during broken moments and everything crushes down on him?
what should he do?!?!
only GOD knows.......
only GOD.........
mood swings back and forth like HELL..
dun noe why..always like this..
shit...sumtimes i just hope my life will end..very soon..
easy..for everyone.......
no more burden.....
no longer heart breaking...
no more guilt....
since this is not a chilling post..
i chose this colour...suits my mood..
e.m.o.... :(
it feels like looking to da sky...
ya its beautiful...open and free...
and ya..u admire it..
but at da same time,
u noe u won't be able to reach it..
u noe dat u won't even able to touch it..
dats da same feeling i have while having u...
it feels like ur da one and only in my life...
ur beauty made me admire u the most...
yet i noe dat loving u wasn't even close to da word " possible "
to even touch ur " taken away " heart may take another century..
or longer...
but da question is.........
"how can you love da person dat doesn't even care bout you?"
guess i was wrong bout u gurl.....
u were not da same as da 1st time i laid my eyes on u...
not to say ur not my taste...but...
seems like i have to face da fact dat u've changed...
changed to sumone dats totally up-side-down....
it felt like piercing a nail through da flesh and bone....
proves da human tongue was rite all along...
"people changed through time"
so what should a soul-less man do when he knew dat he'll die not in da arms of he loved ones....not to forget, he lost all his hopes during broken moments and everything crushes down on him?
what should he do?!?!
only GOD knows.......
only GOD.........
Saturday, October 24, 2009
...a journey to remember...
...24 oct 2009...
2345 WIB
2345 WIB
from a n.e.r.d back from da hell of bangi...
to a d.u.d.e in da streets of ALAM SHAH...
then a h.o.o.l.i.g.a.n at da heaven of NIRWANNA
now...turning into a M.A.N in da land of U.N.P.A.D,jatinangor...indonesia...
well....dats life...time passes on without even a single stop...
hurrmmm...missing those moments...haish...
oh ya...met new frens...haha,,quite easy actually...
ntah...cam..jumpe..
say "hi"..
then kuar...
then da next thing suddenlly ..
da jadi "B.F.F'
haha...strange thing though...how people get dat close like less than a month..
damn....i love da world dat time...
it felt like i was not alone...obviously...
to a d.u.d.e in da streets of ALAM SHAH...
then a h.o.o.l.i.g.a.n at da heaven of NIRWANNA
now...turning into a M.A.N in da land of U.N.P.A.D,jatinangor...indonesia...
well....dats life...time passes on without even a single stop...
hurrmmm...missing those moments...haish...
oh ya...met new frens...haha,,quite easy actually...
ntah...cam..jumpe..
say "hi"..
then kuar...
then da next thing suddenlly ..
da jadi "B.F.F'
haha...strange thing though...how people get dat close like less than a month..
damn....i love da world dat time...
it felt like i was not alone...obviously...
..let me start with su wen..
she came to unpad with me....(wee~...hahah)
but...then after like a month there...she left...damn sedih..
what to do la ryte...it's her choice..
i'm not like her father to decide for her..
plus..she's already 18..i guess she can make her decision kot...heh
so there she goes...she left me alone..(not really...haha)
then...there's intan....da gurl from port dickson...
ya we met like from nirwanna already...but dat time we're just like..
"oh dat dude...oh dat gurl..." hahaha...u got what i mean??hehe
so she's a happy-go-lucky person..
damn lepak n open minded...she "tour-guided" us first time to bandung...
hahaha..thanx intan ;)...
ya people..she screams...a lot...hahahaha...but ok ar...
cool kot...hehe
any problems i'll just tell intan la...since su wen is no longer here...
penat kot telinga die dgr probs aku...sorry tan...
haha...get to noe her..u'll be pleased...honestly...
next!!!!we move on to... natasha shahar...(don't google her name guys!!hahaha)
urmm...what to say ar...haha...she intan's rumie..weee~..
so basically i got to noe her like from intan la...
she LOVES to laugh...haha..wont forget da first time i heard dat...
cool n sweet person....always there for me...thanx tasha! (^,^)
she's like one of da reasons i quit smoking....finally...heh
so...dats make her someone s.p.e.c.i.a.l is it??
hurmmm...we'll see bout dat..hahahah
so people!!!!
dats basically da most important peoples i got to noe here....
felt very very lucky.....
coz without them....
i think i'll be in da dirts of earth rite now...criusly...
luv them...as much me family...jerks..and nirwanaians....
dats all for now...later dong!!!!!


but...then after like a month there...she left...damn sedih..
what to do la ryte...it's her choice..
i'm not like her father to decide for her..
plus..she's already 18..i guess she can make her decision kot...heh
so there she goes...she left me alone..(not really...haha)
then...there's intan....da gurl from port dickson...
ya we met like from nirwanna already...but dat time we're just like..
"oh dat dude...oh dat gurl..." hahaha...u got what i mean??hehe
so she's a happy-go-lucky person..
damn lepak n open minded...she "tour-guided" us first time to bandung...
hahaha..thanx intan ;)...
ya people..she screams...a lot...hahahaha...but ok ar...
cool kot...hehe
any problems i'll just tell intan la...since su wen is no longer here...
penat kot telinga die dgr probs aku...sorry tan...
haha...get to noe her..u'll be pleased...honestly...
next!!!!we move on to... natasha shahar...(don't google her name guys!!hahaha)
urmm...what to say ar...haha...she intan's rumie..weee~..
so basically i got to noe her like from intan la...
she LOVES to laugh...haha..wont forget da first time i heard dat...
cool n sweet person....always there for me...thanx tasha! (^,^)
she's like one of da reasons i quit smoking....finally...heh
so...dats make her someone s.p.e.c.i.a.l is it??
hurmmm...we'll see bout dat..hahahah
so people!!!!
dats basically da most important peoples i got to noe here....
felt very very lucky.....
coz without them....
i think i'll be in da dirts of earth rite now...criusly...
luv them...as much me family...jerks..and nirwanaians....
dats all for now...later dong!!!!!

K.A.M.I
natasha.intan.su wen.ali
natasha.intan.su wen.ali
Thursday, June 18, 2009
......it seems like.......
19/06/09
aku dapat 4a beb dlm exam....first sem aku..
pergh...x sangka lak..
ye la..tima exam aku ade entrance exam class...
so...nk study pn takde mase...
sepatutnye malam ni..aku kena happy ar ryte???
dapat 4a..bukan senang...
tapi x tau nape......
tiap kali aku pikir pasal orang tu......
makin sedih lak jiwa ni...
serius doh...aku makin sedih mlm2 camni....
x suka lak eh.....
aku bukan expert atau pro....
dlam benda2 camni...
juz 2nd time ar kot...
so aku x tau nak wat pe....
member semua cakap..."relaks la ali..."
but.....how la ek...........
aku nk buat keje xde mood....
nak wat pape pun xde mood.......
adik angkat aku ni lak.....surh aku jangan sedih.....
masalah nye...aku x sedih....juz hampa...
yup...dats da correct word.....HAMPA....
damn!
nak wat pe lak ni....
xtau ar doh...aku redha je la..........
maybe ni takdir aku kot....aku rase ar.....
mungkin aku memang akan begini je sampai ke kubur.....
salah aku ker???
or aku ade kurang sesuatu???
or aku terlebih?????
tell me!!!!!!!!!!!!
honestly....aku ade pikir nk suicide.....
tapi x elok ar....berdosa dalam religion aku.....
mungkin................
aku memang xkan ade orang kat luar sane untuk aku?!?!?!
adeh.........sakit kepala...
nk smoke...tapi rumah bai....kantoi mati aku.....
so nak wat pe??
hrmmmmmm.......
BETTER DIE LA.....
aku dapat 4a beb dlm exam....first sem aku..
pergh...x sangka lak..
ye la..tima exam aku ade entrance exam class...
so...nk study pn takde mase...
sepatutnye malam ni..aku kena happy ar ryte???
dapat 4a..bukan senang...
tapi x tau nape......
tiap kali aku pikir pasal orang tu......
makin sedih lak jiwa ni...
serius doh...aku makin sedih mlm2 camni....
x suka lak eh.....
aku bukan expert atau pro....
dlam benda2 camni...
juz 2nd time ar kot...
so aku x tau nak wat pe....
member semua cakap..."relaks la ali..."
but.....how la ek...........
aku nk buat keje xde mood....
nak wat pape pun xde mood.......
adik angkat aku ni lak.....surh aku jangan sedih.....
masalah nye...aku x sedih....juz hampa...
yup...dats da correct word.....HAMPA....
damn!
nak wat pe lak ni....
xtau ar doh...aku redha je la..........
maybe ni takdir aku kot....aku rase ar.....
mungkin aku memang akan begini je sampai ke kubur.....
salah aku ker???
or aku ade kurang sesuatu???
or aku terlebih?????
tell me!!!!!!!!!!!!
honestly....aku ade pikir nk suicide.....
tapi x elok ar....berdosa dalam religion aku.....
mungkin................
aku memang xkan ade orang kat luar sane untuk aku?!?!?!
adeh.........sakit kepala...
nk smoke...tapi rumah bai....kantoi mati aku.....
so nak wat pe??
hrmmmmmm.......
BETTER DIE LA.....
Friday, March 20, 2009
.....a Lunch with Marlia Maisarah.....
"Friday the 20th"
oh happy day....
i woke up very sleepy lol...
sleepy eyes (=,=) in da morning...
"mak,where's my black baju melayu?"
"kat sini haa...apo ni ngah?pagi2 dah xnampak.."
ayooo mak...
last nite study bio lol...
tu pun after i knew dat i missed bio practical yesterday...
nvr mind lah...
now...
da lunch...
last nite already plan mehh..
only me, jaya n Marlia Maisarah...
but then!
tarina mau follow....
ok la...
it's not like everyday i have lunch with her rite...
skali skale...
heh..
but then!
Joovan & Kenneth followed...
ayoyoyoyoyo....
a bit dissapointed ar dat time...
juz a bit lol...
sory ar guys...
heh..
straight to da "SECRET RECIPES"...
oh happy day....
i woke up very sleepy lol...
sleepy eyes (=,=) in da morning...
"mak,where's my black baju melayu?"
"kat sini haa...apo ni ngah?pagi2 dah xnampak.."
ayooo mak...
last nite study bio lol...
tu pun after i knew dat i missed bio practical yesterday...
nvr mind lah...
now...
da lunch...
last nite already plan mehh..
only me, jaya n Marlia Maisarah...
but then!
tarina mau follow....
ok la...
it's not like everyday i have lunch with her rite...
skali skale...
heh..
but then!
Joovan & Kenneth followed...
ayoyoyoyoyo....
a bit dissapointed ar dat time...
juz a bit lol...
sory ar guys...
heh..
straight to da "SECRET RECIPES"...
==============================
all of sudden, they were heading towards the mamak stall...
what da???
"wei,secret recipe lol...mau gi mamak ke?"
"nono...i thought mamak juz now..."
"heh,u lalu pun da ckap scary...ni lak nk lunch kat situ.."
"ei!i will one day eat at there ok?i will sit there n eat.."
"yea rite...in a thousand years...."
marlia....marlia....
pe la...
we got lost in da central market!
forgot to turn on my gps system...
sory2....
heh....
while ordering.....
marlia n tarina were looking at da "power saving meal"
come on marlia!
it's on me lol..
order something exclusive....
"okok...give me spaghetti meatball chicken..."
ahaa..
like dat la marlia....
"but afraid cannot finish lol...."
"relax la marlia...."
evryone brought bio books...
since we're having bio test....
kenneth and joovan bising already...
da akak and abg there started staring at us...
damn lol...
agak malu laa disitu....
ayoi...
marlia da tension...
hehe~
here comes da food....
cepat2 makan...
wanna study bio...
marlia ate very slowly....
i can see dat she's muak with da food
sory la marlia....
i dunno dat it wasn't ur taste...
juz trying...
then finished!
they went to class, i went to masjid jamek...
friday prayers laaa....
something happened during biolozee class..
but xmau cite la meh......
wat tension je...
heh!
emo je keje lecturer...
so dat's it boys and gurls!
"a lunch with marlia maisarah"
happy day lol!
chiao~
what da???
"wei,secret recipe lol...mau gi mamak ke?"
"nono...i thought mamak juz now..."
"heh,u lalu pun da ckap scary...ni lak nk lunch kat situ.."
"ei!i will one day eat at there ok?i will sit there n eat.."
"yea rite...in a thousand years...."
marlia....marlia....
pe la...
we got lost in da central market!
forgot to turn on my gps system...
sory2....
heh....
while ordering.....
marlia n tarina were looking at da "power saving meal"
come on marlia!
it's on me lol..
order something exclusive....
"okok...give me spaghetti meatball chicken..."
ahaa..
like dat la marlia....
"but afraid cannot finish lol...."
"relax la marlia...."
evryone brought bio books...
since we're having bio test....
kenneth and joovan bising already...
da akak and abg there started staring at us...
damn lol...
agak malu laa disitu....
ayoi...
marlia da tension...
hehe~
here comes da food....
cepat2 makan...
wanna study bio...
marlia ate very slowly....
i can see dat she's muak with da food
sory la marlia....
i dunno dat it wasn't ur taste...
juz trying...
then finished!
they went to class, i went to masjid jamek...
friday prayers laaa....
something happened during biolozee class..
but xmau cite la meh......
wat tension je...
heh!
emo je keje lecturer...
so dat's it boys and gurls!
"a lunch with marlia maisarah"
happy day lol!
chiao~
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
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